Anxiety and Authority

Today’s world is full of anxiety. Without a doubt, we are hitting record highs in the anxiety levels of people in the world and especially with people living in America.

I can relate. The past year and a half has undoubtedly been the most challenging in my life – but also the most beneficial. At one point I contemplated quitting school a month before graduation, mostly because of one central question: WHAT AM I DOING HERE?? What is my future? Who am I? Wait, I don’t want to work for someone else! How will I survive? Fuck. I would think of all the ways life could go horribly wrong. I lose all my investments. I am forced into working for someone. I get depressed. I kill myself. Those were the darkest thoughts. But at the end of the day, I found a better path.

DuckDuckGo defines Anxiety as this: A state of apprehension, uncertainty, and fear resulting from the anticipation of a realistic or fantasized threatening event or situation, often impairing physical and psychological functioning.

And here’s the thing I think we all know about anxiety: It doesn’t help. Ever. It isn’t quite the same as other problems that we recognize. For example, if you asked chronic marijuana smokers if marijuana was helping or hurting them, I think a lot would say it helps. And among those who said it wasn’t really helping them, they would still probably have a list of pros and cons, like it helps them sleep but they are more lazy. With anxiety, I almost never hear people talk about any benefits. Of course I am generalizing a lot here, but I think you get my core idea.

The pressure to remove something that is ONLY negative versus something that is good and bad should generally be higher. After all, you have more to gain as you are only removing bad rather than ‘bad and good’. To go back to my experience, how did any of my negative thoughts help me? No, they hurt. By focusing on the negative, I would get negative. Invariably, when I focused on the positive and what could go RIGHT, I would make more money, be happier, see paths forward, etc.

You probably know this though, and in your head you’re saying yes, yes, I understand, anxiety is bad and I have it, now HOW THE FUCK DO I GET RID OF IT?? Don’t worry, I’ll give it my best shot:

To solve any problem, we need to get to the root cause of the problem. While I think there are surface-level symptoms that make anxiety levels worse, such as the covid measures of all sorts, I think that this period in time has come with a general change in the collective awareness (still a very small fraction of people, but more than ever): Life is more than just money, work, and pleasure. There is a higher purpose out there and the path to fulfilling that purpose might not be found in following the crowd. You can use your own authority and do not depend on the authority of others. And yet, at the same time, the pressures pushing people to conformity are stronger than ever. Maybe you are one of the people that doesn’t want to follow?

What the earth is going through right now is an acceleration of sorts – towards what end I am still not exactly sure, but either way it includes the acceleration of technology, science, and psychology (most importantly, parapsychology and all of its consequent phenomena). This comes with a greater awareness of the drivers of human existence, and spiritual realities. I don’t really care to speculate further on that as I think there are more qualified people out there who have a better grasp on what this actually means.

To use an analogy, it is like we have changed the car we are driving and the nature of the roads that new car drives on. So everyone now has a Ferrari vs a Prius, but many of the people are driving on rockier roads. For someone driving their new Ferrari on a straight and new road, they are gonna get to where they are going much faster. But to someone driving their Ferrari on shittier roads, they are much more likely to crash and burn. With the Prius, you might crash, but hey, you aren’t gonna die. You’re going fucking 15 miles an hour.

So with this acceleration people are unsure of who they are and what their purpose is. This is good, as previously people might have just ignored this and lived the same boring, monotonous life that the rest of the sheep live without ever questioning if there were something more for them to find. For those of you that feel this way, I advise finding radical new ways to discover more about yourself. Maybe things you have thought of doing but were unsure about previously. Don’t be afraid to drop out of college. Don’t be afraid to lose friends. Don’t be afraid to be different. Don’t be afraid of the unknown. The unknown is your friend. Bask in the beauty of uncertainty. After all, being ‘certain’ is an illusion. Logic destroys itself. There is only the everlasting quest into the unknown.

I do various forms of meditation, I use crystals, I use human design, I use the Gene Keys, I follow masters, I try things on my body inside and outside. I really don’t believe there is anyone quite like me. Nor do I think there is anyone quite like you, if you choose to create your own identity. This is my example, this is my current truth.

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